new painting and studio musings
I finished the painting above, Winter Garden
(30"x34") this week, meeting one of the deadlines I've been working toward (applying to the Wisconsin Arts Board for direct purchases.) As I've posted before, it's been an intense time in the studio, and continues to be. Lots of hours in the studio, passed in various states of mind. Many times I am in an almost meditative zone...things happen with the paint almost as if I'm watching from outside myself. I love those times--they are the best.
Other times, my brain is overly engaged in less than positive ways. Thinking about the work itself is fine--analysis and evaluation of how things are going are important to my process. But thinking just to fill a void--not so good. Negative thoughts, trivia, to-do lists, pointless replays...the static of the brain is endless. I try to be alert to it, recognize it--then turn it off, take a break. It can be deadly to creativity.
I am impressed by a clear analysis of this on Catherine Carter's blog.
She writes about letting go of certain negative things she imagined other people might say about her work, or things they might expect from her. Many of us will read this and relate...why is it that negative comments or thoughts have such power, while positive ones seem harder to keep in mind?
In the midst of a rather grueling studio schedule, I'm aware of the need for managing my mind as best I can. And since reading Catherine's post, I've felt a deeper gratitude for all the positive comments that come my way. Like a lot of people, I have some trouble fully accepting positive feedback. BUT I'm trying to mend my ways here...to more fully appreciate what people write or tell me about my work, and to honor what has motivated and inspired them to offer the comment. It provides good energy all around. I recommend taking a moment to fully and deeply appreciate the last positive comment someone made to you about your work...feel the power there?